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Im Definitely dying alone. Im ok with that. I just dont want to be here anymore. How Capitalism Works
Capitalists: Thanks to The All-Knowing Invisible Hand of the unfettered Free Market, everyone has an Equal Opportunity to invest in companies and earn profits from those investments. The best companies will be rewarded with more investors, which will increase their value while the investors profit! Redditors: (invest in GameStop, then AMC, then Blackberry, crashing hedge funds that were betting on them to fail) Capitalists: Not like that! The Road so Far.
IM on to something huge. Life changing This will rock the world I want to be happy but Im just scared of whats to Come “Just Don’t Fucking Dance” Im Tired
Im going through alot of emotions I don’t really talk about them ever. to anyone. Im trying to do this on my Own. and Im trying. and Im trying and Im trying Im tired I’ve lost the one I love to my mental health problems and anxiety and lost promises I don’t do this on purpose. Im just tired of my failures Im tired of failing I try to make them better. but they always fail I don’t trust anything anymore or anyone Don’t tell me it gets better and to keep working on it. BC it hasn’t. Don’t fucking tell me its bc I don’t want my life to or that I have to make it happen for myself. BC I FUCKING HAVE AND FAILED AND I FUCKING LISTEN TO PEOPLE I LOVE TO JUST FAIL SOME MORE OR BE FUCKING LET DOWN. I have so much anxiety that it inhibits me to start things or go through with things. I just don’t believe in myself anymore, I feel worthless and unlovable bc As a Man I can’t provide like I should. and Since I can’t I shouldn’t be loved or thats what society says and my Ex has shown me. I just want to be better for myself and My Mom. and even that. She’s on her side. And since Im not progressing enough or fast enough so my mom resents me and my ex left me. Idk. Im just so Tired
Shes Gone
And she’s moved on. Good for her She will find her happiness and Im happy for her. I wanted things to get better between us and I love her so much. I just need to work on myself so this doesn’t happen again For the next. If I ever fall in love again. I just don’t know how I became the bad guy but If she needs to hate me to move on. So be it. I know Im not the one to be hated so It’s Ok Dream
I went to her house to do something outside. Maybe clean her car or something like that. I know I was working outside on something of hers. She was across the street at some restaurant sitting outside but I could barely see her. I hear someone call out to me. I look behind me and her Dad is watching me from the window upstairs. He Says “You just gonna let her go on a date?” I turn to get a better look at her and shes sitting with someone else I drop everything and leave. I wake up Dad she told me she doesn’t love me anymore. You know I just want the best for her. Just continue to Protect Us. I miss you too Dad. Hey.
I still love you. I’m happy for you and I want you to have the best life for yourself. Im upset on those certain days bc I love you so much I want to call you every I miss everything Of course Im going to be angry. You were the best thing to happen to me and I fucked it up. and It hurts to see you go and see you be with someone else. I have no choice but to block you bc it hurts too much I want you to be happy. I want only the best for you. Im happy you’re feeling yourself. You’re so fucking gorgeous. You should Feel yourself. Just please Understand that I can’t sit here and put myself through the pain. Im trying to better myself. Im trying to get through this on my own. Bc right now all I have is myself. One day maybe you’ll see this and I hope you understand why I blocked you on certain things. It’s not bc I hate you and I don’t want to see you do better, thats not it. It hurts bc you’re gone. you told me you didn’t love me anymore. You left me while Im at my lowest. Youre going to be amazing Take care of yourself I will always love you. |
